There will be days…

I recently lost a very good friend to breast cancer. She was a wonderful friend, amazing mother, beautiful wife, and just an all around incredible woman. She enjoyed life, sometimes more than the rest of us, I think. She had a heart of gold and would always think of others. It seemed like her mission in this lifetime was to make the people around her the best person they could be – leaving behind her an everlasting legacy.


I realize that there will be days when missing her will be in the forefront of my heart, but it’ll never outweigh the love and gratitude I have for my friend. For her, I am thankful.

I’ll take it!

Well I’m doing it, y’all! Down 10 lbs so far from about 3 weeks ago, and I’ve lost 2.5″! This is exciting news.

The best part about all this is that I’ve been eating more and I know that the food I’m fueling my body and mind with is of good quality and is mostly wholesome. I’m not being super stringent with myself – I did have a brownie Sunday and today, but based on the calories I’ve consumed both days, I could afford it.

I’m learning to track all of my calories using the myfitnesspal app. It’s really making me conscious of the things I’m eating, and how often (or infrequent) I’m eating. Plus at the end of the day or throughout the day, I can check my overall nutrient levels so I can see if I need to go easy on the carbs, or pack on the protein during the last few meals of the day. It’s a pretty cool app that helps you stay accountable for what you’re eating. And really, that’s what I need the most… Accountability.

The Walinski Clan

Yes… I’m a Polski! And I’m a proud Polski to boot!

Quite an interesting bunch, my family. Gma & Gpa had 6 kiddos – a small litter considering my Gma was one of 13 (Yikes, Great Gma K! That woman deserves a medal) – five girls and one boy. The Walinski Clan in order of birth: Carol, Joan, John, Dianne, Kay, Patricia. This is where the fun starts… They each have a “10-year twin” meaning they were born 10 years apart: Carol & Dianne, Joan & Kay, John & Trish.

The next generation is where this gets even more interesting… There’s six of us cousins, five girls and one boy – are you seeing a pattern? In order of birth: Jack, Michelle, Jennifer, Christine, Sara, Morgan. And guess what, the pattern continues! We each have a 10 year twin also; Jack & Christine, Michelle & Sara, Jennifer & Morgan (well, these two throw a wrench in the equation – 9 years apart, BUT on the same day, so we’ll let that one slide). Crazy, right???

The best part about our family is that we’re all so incredibly unique, yet we all get along so well. Each person brings his or her own craziness to the table; from missing fingers to tattoos, we’re a regular circus when we all get together.

Gotta love the fun photo ops when Uncle John and his missing fingers are around!

Gotta love the fun photo ops when Uncle John and his missing fingers are around!

I can hear the circus theme now...

Skyping with Kay in NY… Little did everyone know she’d appear onscreen with a red foam nose like the rest of us! (My mom & Kay are always plotting during reunions)

Let the blogging begin!

Welcome to my first blog entry in Sealed With A Hundred Kisses!

In case you were wondering about the title of my blog… I was opening Christmas cards this morning and was reminded of that little acronym SWAK (Sealed with a Kiss). You remember – when you used to actually write letters and send them through the post? And on those people that meant a lot to you, you’d kiss the envelope closure and write SWAK! But for me, the title means so much more… I’m a huge proponent of love and gratitude. I feel that those emotions can heal the greatest of wounds; it may just take some time to uncover those feelings. And what better way to physically express love and gratitude than with a kiss? 🙂

This morning I got to thinking about things in my life that I’m very thankful for and things I’d like to change. Last night I had a hard night’s sleep – I actually went to bed at a decent time, but I woke up around 2am for no apparent reason and then when my alarm went off at 7am, I felt incredibly groggy and didn’t want to get up. This is very unusual for me, especially since this has been a daily occurrence for the last week or two. I was so concerned about this that went to WebMD in an effort to look it up. Lo & behold, the first thing on their home page was an article titled “Why Are You So Tired? 14 common causes of fatigue and how to fight back”. After reading about the 14 causes of fatigue (and their respective fixes), I decided that I need to make some changes to my life.

A great friend of mine, Nicole Gaitan, has a blog ( that I’ve been following. She’s a personal trainer in Scotts Valley, CA with an incredible ability to tap into what motivates you. One of her clients came to her with a particularly difficult situation and one of Nicole’s requirements for this particular client was to start a blog and to update it daily. The client was apprehensive about the ability to sustain this kind of writing, but as time passed the blog helped her to see how she was progressing. After all, when you’re engulfed in the situation and things change so minimally each day, you can sometimes overlook the progress you’ve made. I decided that this was something that I needed to do for myself. So here we are!

Change #1: I will aim to blog daily. Not all blog entries will be fun-filled and joyous, but they’ll be true to who I am.

Change #2: Lose 10-20 lbs. To reach this goal I’ll have to make additional changes in my life:
Change #2a: Do something active each day. Whether it’s walking to get the mail, taking a walk around the block, going for a jog, getting out my bike and taking a ride, going salsa dancing, taking a yoga break, or exercising with my kettlebell. Just do something ACTIVE!
Change #2b: Make healthy food choices. I have already been doing this, but lately I’ve been slacking a little. So it’s time to get back on top and start making those healthy choices!

Change #3: Start making goals and plan out how I’m going to accomplish them. This blog is a start! From a pair of shoes that I have my eye on, but can’t seem to justify the price tag, to organizing my extra bedroom and office, to redesigning my home decor – I need to determine what I want and mark out how I’m going to get it done.

I’m a firm believer that if you put your mind to it and concentrate on your goal, you can reach it. So my goal for this blog is to help me keep myself accountable and help me stay on top of the changes I want to take place in my life.

sara jean